What went wrong?

I have figured out why I'm like this,
Me and a friend talked about it. She thinks emotions hit me more than most people
like i have more of a flood of them
which i must agree with, but i didn't realise it wasn't like this for other people
i explained how i saw things to her
how lying there with them, closing your eyes and breathing in their smell, feeling your bodies touch and feeling amazing that they are here in your arms
i put more importance on the people in my life
and I'm a very sensual person
everything hits me hard! and it scares people
everyone thinks I'm a sex addict, but i really just love the close feeling i get when your moving as one! heart beating in sync, all wrapped up in each other
people think sex is just sex..
i put on that facade! because if people realised what my view on sex was, they'd think I'm an idiot
sex is immensely special to me, but in some misguided attempt and trying to find the love i lacked in my family, i exuded the belief that sex doesn't matter.

i fall for people very easily. I've always known that, but you are so different i cant figure out why its so different
but your smart and funny and you understand me
your mature-ish, sensitive to my emotions i think and you put up with me
its amazing i cant figure out what this is for me
and yet you find it so easy to call it quits
i thought id be that one you'd fall for, everyone else seems to!
i seem to be the one who everyone cant get over!
but maybe its because I'm the one trying to chase you!
would you find me more attractive if i stopped chasing?
or would you never give me a second glance!
risk it? or keep fighting?
which does he want me to do..
so many decisions i cant make right now i need to talk to him, i need to yell actually! i want him to see the angry and sadness he has pushed on me
i want him to feel bad for what he has done and i want to get inside his head and figure out what went wrong!