I lie in bed at night, alone
wondering what your doing.. remembering what it was like to have someone next to me.
i think about all those who have shared their bed with me and a thought comes to me.
i dont have to sleep alone,
i could be the first to speak but then id be trapped!
i dont know, i dont want to be alone! i dont function like this!
but, i got away from him for a reason! and i cant just skip back into his arms just so i dont have to be alone!
be alone or be trapped!
which should i choose!
i know there are better people out there for me! but there not in my life right now and i miss having somenoe whisper they love me.
i miss not having to shoulder everything! i miss having someone always there to listen to me and to keep me entertained!
but really? what was the relationship to me?..
sex, movies, sex.. we didnt to anything we just had sex
is that really a relationship?
i could talk to you about all the bad things in that relationship, spell it out in big letters!
and they'd all be true, how much could i tell you about all the good things?
once upon a time, there was nothing but good things.
now, i cant even remember
besides the fact that the sex was great!
i dont know what i want anymore.. i wouldnt know how to get what i wanted if i knew!
im not sure im making sense anymore, im just so tired of dreaming about you and then rolling over and finding nothing but my empty bed
i dont want to dream of you anymore,
please leave my thoughts and leave my dreams!
just leave!
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