last time

I thought you were making me better, but i only now realise that you were cutting out your own hole in me.
"its not you its me?" ha ha like i haven't heard that one before.
i know what i have done, i know i made you run away so stop pretending that its not my fault
"lets be friends" how can i be your friend when every time i see your face i die a little more inside.
i guess i should of seen this coming, you wouldn't hold my hand, look at me or kiss me
and i was stupid enough to let myself fall for you. i knew id get punished for what i have done in the past..
i promise that i wont let myself get disappointed by men anymore, i wont try and make myself happy, living here in misery is so much easier.
much much more pleasant and where i cant get brought down anymore. because iv already hit rock bottom
i don't want to be here though!
I WANT TO BE HAPPY.. but why is it that every time i try to be happy something happens to destroy it.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME..
i let you in, and you took one look and ran a mile!
lets be friends.. lets be mother fucking friends
sure.. lets add more pain, you'll find someone new and it will feel like a stab in the chest again and again!
i thought you were helping..
i thought i was getting better
i should of known! i cant get better.. because I'm so fucked up
i want to be able to fade away.. i don't want to face anymore days..
I'm sick and tired of hurting over people
this is the last time i let someone in.. last time i set myself up for a fall