Coming back with a vengence

I think, i can do this
i think i can be the friend instead of someone who you care about.
even though i may die inside, and even though every time i look at you is torture
i can be your friend
for you..
because this is what you want, so i will be your friend
and thats all we'll ever be
but thats okay
because im giving up, throwing in every towel i ever had
i dont want to fight anymore, i dont want to play tug-a-war with a wall
it aint moving i aint wining!
doesnt help that we dont talk, you avoid me i use every opportunity i can to get close enough so that you may notice me and say hello
i feel so pathetic, that i have to try and get your attention?
i shouldn't have to. i should automatically get your attention!
im not ugly, im not average! IM FUCKING HOT!
you know this!!!
next time you see me, i wont be sad ill strut my stuff and show you what your missing!
because you dont notice a girl who's dying on the inside, you'll notice the loud, happy and flirty girl that i am!
but if not, thats okay because i tried right? no shame in losing!
no shame in losing ones mind! ones heart! ones everything!
if you have nothing left to lose, why not go for it!?
I hope your ready for me now.
because im coming back with a vengence