I Am A Warrior In My Own Head

I think, i can finally move on from this side of me!
I am pretty sure i am getting better now
and i think i have to thank someone,
Thank you for being there when i needed you, thank you for putting up with my shit
thank you for dumping me,
thank you for ignoring me, and thank you for forcing me to figure all this out!
I thank you because if it wasn't for you, i would still be in the dark about this
i don't need anything for comfort anymore, i don't need sex or boys or anything..
i haven't had a nightmare for 4 nights, the relief is so great it makes me want to sing, and that's not something you want to hear!
i have more energy than i ever had before, and i smile when no ones looking!
i don't feel all the way empty and I'm not fighting my thoughts!

I am a warrior in my own head, and i stood against all the dark thoughts and i prevailed! all because of you,
i owe you an apology, and you shall receive that!
i owe you much more than that!
my life is looking just that little bit brighter!
of coarse i know I'm not out of the woods just yet, but i cant help but be happy right now!
happy that i don't curl up in a ball each night, happy that i can stand on my own two feet for once!
and happy because i wont need to hurt myself to fill the void in myself
this one will be quiet short, because when I'm happy, there isn't a lot to write about
but who cares!
i wont delete my blog, because i would like to have it here, like a safety net!
if i should fall it will be here to catch me