An imposter of the real me.

I dont think I've ever felt so disrespected and so betrayed in my life.
I hope you all had a good laugh over it all, over my feelings over my tears..
I hope it was really entertaining.

I figured out today that it's never been about you, it was always about me..
how i felt, how i was thinking. me
my issues are all stemming from my own insecurities
I dont feel good enough, I dont know if I want to do this anymore
I can't handle it, I am not pretty enough..

all my own issues, they have damaged this! damaged myself, it was never anyone else who screwed me up
it was myself.
I can always come back from this, I can move forward and bring who I really am out.
Because it was always that girl who everyone loved.. not this girl, who i have become
she isnt my friend, she is a imposter of me. a mask that I have worn and now I wish to take the mask off.
it would be like the sun coming out from being the clouds..
i just need to throw away the mask and prove to you that I can be this fun happy girl
someone you would be more than happy to be with!

sounds easy enough. doesnt it?