Heads or Tails

I feel like im back in the 1600's
back when if they feared you of being a witch you were burned.
and no matter how much you pleaded or told the truth you were ignored.
I dont know how to prove it to you, how to let you know that there is no one else that there was no one else!
I feel like screaming out in frustration! pulling my hair out!
you just dont get it do you? no matter how much I tell you, no matter how much I prove to you
I am just not that type of girl
I was never the type of girl who cheated or was even attracted to other boys.
once I fell I fell for good!
Everyone is telling me that I should just cut my loses and walk away while you've given me the perfect excuse to,
I could... I could force myself to walk away,
but I wont.
why?


Because my heart has tied me to this man, and until I can undo this knot I wont move from his side.
and I hate that! hate that I am nothing to him when he is everything to me!
I hate that he wants another and I cant even think about any other boys like that
I feel trapt in my own body and I hate that
Maybe to move forward it wasnt forgetting the past.
maybe it was ignoring my present!

Maybe I should toss a coin?
heads - stay
tails - go.


Heads or Tails?